Hmph. I never felt so alone. Not in my first year, when my only former schoolmate-classmate got a bunch of her own friends and I'm left in the background, not in the times I have to ride the jeepney alone on my way home and definitely not in the moments I spent my idle time eating at McDonald's alone.
But the thought of it - well, I really think I am so solitary that I can be depressed anytime.
Why?
I am going to my future college, Ateneo De Manila University, alone. I am going to walk past the towering trees and sprawling fields without having anyone to talk to. It's not that I'm not used to being alone - it's just that, I'm supposed to be with my college schoolmate and he sort of bailed out of the deal because he can't still find the baby book he is searching for like forever.
Hay, depressed talaga ako sa'yo David.
Imagine, the thought of my trip from Sta. Ana, Manila to Loyola Heights, Quezon City is really tiring in its plain sense, and boring, by the way, if you consider taking it alone. And just when I assumed I got somebody to talk to to kill boredom.. Waaah.. Sucks.
And I have to be alone from 8:00 a.m. -2:00 a.m. until such time I am going to be saved by Meg and Michelle whom I have agreed to spend time with so they would deliver Jeric's diploma and for me to hand the DVDs I promised Michelle.
~~ Ayan. Talk about rant.
Dahil "Alone" na rin naman ang topic ko, ehdi ididiretso ko na.
Haaay, I never pondered on me being alone until David told me he couldn't go with me (trigger ka talaga Berto!) But then looking back, I realized there were only four of us (Rudolph, Jeric, David, me) in Ateneo, and with Rudolph in SOSE and the three of us (JGSOM) separated by our courses, it occured to me that it was for real, I am on my own now. Yes, we may try (and try we will) to find common ground in our schedules for a little get-together but it doesn't change the fact that while I am on my way to my next class, the likeliest thing to happen is just bump into the shoulders of these classmates of mine, and wave, and walk away again. We are really lucky if we can find a short time where we can sit under a tree and talk about the events of a day while sipping a frappe (or hot choco in my case) and munching some edibles. Indeed, if there was anything radical that would be happening in my life, then this would be it, for I am now on my separate way now, leaving behind the things I used to know and perhaps loved.
Kaya naiinggit ako nang kaunti sa mga classmates ko sa La Salle.
There is really a bunch of them there. And none of them is going to be alone for the rest of their stay there. Two or three of them are in a same course plus include the notion that these small groups are in one college. Haay.
College of [Insert Word Here]
* Meg at JD - kung anuman ang pangalan ng course nila, hindi ko pa rin alam. Basta may Accountancy at Economics 'yun. If I'm not mistaken classmates sila forever.
* Jason - Alam ko Accountancy siya.
College of [Insert Word Here]
*Bien, Jana, Marpa? - Basta my Computer Systems Engineering na pangalan sa course nila.
College of [Engineering?]
*Michelle, Lolo, Adolfo - Electronics and Communications Engineering
*Krister - Civil Engineering
College of [Insert Word Here]
*Carlos - malay ko kung anong course nito. Hahahaha. Okay lang. Invisible naman eh.
Idagdag mo pa ang maraming-maraming MaScians na dadagsa sa LaSalle para mag-aral. Ang sarap tuloy nilang bilangin para iprove ang theory ko na 30-40% ng MSHS community ay naroon.
Kaya naman napakaliit ng pagkakataong mag-isa sila. Andami kasi talaga nila.
To put it clearly, I am not afraid to be alone. Hahaha. Funny. God knows I've been in a handful of situations [technically] worse than this but I haven't even winked an eye out of fear. I'm really kind of disappointed upon knowing that there is so much little or no chance of us three being blockmates and there is not a big hope of them adjusting to my schedule [because I'm in the 2nd batch of those who get to enlist and they in the 3rd]. So there. I really got no other options but be bold enough to approach a stranger and make a friend out of him/her lest I lost my sanity and resort to being aloof, which is so not me.
Tapos na akong mag-rant. Hindi na ako depressed kay David, kasi parehas lang kami. :P
Magboboy-hunting na lang ako 'pag walang magawa. 'Di ba Michelle?
I'm so excited.
Going back, ito ang gagawin ko bukas.
*Submit to Ateneo my Medical and have my ID picture taken
*Drop by MaSci to claim [if it can be] the yearbook
*Go and see Meg and Michelle at McDo-DLSU 2:00 p.m.
~ Matatapos ko na Naruto, Mag-o-OC at GG ako simultaneously. :P
P.S. Alam ko na ang ibig sabihin ng itinerary.
P.S.S./P.P.S. [kung anuman ang tama diyan] Alam ko na kung paano i-pronounce and sesquicentennial.
About Me
- Geneve Guyano
- Manila, NCR, Philippines
- a Development Studies student struggling with conciseness (in writing!)
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