One of my frustrations as a (trying-hard) writer is this recurring disability to finish my works. Of course, a real writer is evaluated through the works he has created. And take note, finished works. Who's writer in this effing world will show his unfinished manuscripts to the reading public? It's reasonable that he'll show it to his editor for assessment, but considering that this post is about me, you have to be informed (although I think you may have guessed it earlier) about these certain facts:
* I am not a professional writer. Because if I am, then surely I accomplished some literary works under my belt. And for one thing, professional writers do not waste their time complaining why they can't write/finish something because
-- if they can't, they will just find another theme to write about, which eventually they will finish
* I write literary stuff (shit) when something strikes me (i.e. light bulb moment) and not when I have to submit it before the deadline or as a requirement.
-- those brainstorm ideas happen to appear at the wee hours of the day :|
* I'm a busy bee (really?). I like to do many stuffs, and sometimes, I really have to do many things, so the tendency is I'm tired when I go home and instead of opening the Microsoft Word after turning on the computer, I just stare at my monitor and eventually fall asleep.
What do you suppose I am trying to say? All I mean is, all this ideas for my hopefully next piece of poetry/fiction/essay show up at like wtf-time-of-the-day and then I will get all hyped up thinking that I may somehow finally produce something worth reading, but then I will think, (since I'm [tired] for the day)"Ohh, it's too early, I'm too woozy to function" and the next thing, I get back to sleep thinking I can write this tomorrow since the subject is not really forgettable.
And then the sleeping time passes. Hello another day.
I open my laptop and open the most helpful program for writers, in Windows OS sense, the Microsoft Word. I am now poised in my indian-sit position on this chair already slightly tapping the keyboard thinking of the best word to start my work. Then, I type.
Type, type, type. Until I see already all the words I want to appear on my screen.
Just a few moments after, though I have the most vivid idea of what to say, everything just turns blank. My mind is empty, I am at loss for words. Reading again what I have already done so far I just heave a sigh and say, "What now?"
The most irritating part is, everytime I return to those unfinished works to put an even better end to a seemingly very good (yabang!) beginning, I just come back to staring at the monitor again, heaving another sigh of relief. "Hayy, sayang naman 'to, nagising pa kaya ako ng 3 a.m. para sa idea na 'to!"
Aaaargh. This is too much for writer's bl0ck. It is really reasonable for me to think that a writer's job is really a complicated one. Hindi pa nga ako full-fledged writer hirap na ako. Grrrr. So there. If only there is what you call, half-writers, one-fourth writers or one-seventh writers, depending on how much they are close to finishing their work. But wait a minute, since they have not yet even accomplished what they are doing, it's really impossible to measure the kind of writers that they are... See? How frustrating.
For the record here's the list of some works left undone:
* 2 essays
* 2 novels
* 3 short stories
* 3 blog posts :P
I still want to say something, but I.....
* I am not a professional writer. Because if I am, then surely I accomplished some literary works under my belt. And for one thing, professional writers do not waste their time complaining why they can't write/finish something because
-- if they can't, they will just find another theme to write about, which eventually they will finish
* I write literary stuff (shit) when something strikes me (i.e. light bulb moment) and not when I have to submit it before the deadline or as a requirement.
-- those brainstorm ideas happen to appear at the wee hours of the day :|
* I'm a busy bee (really?). I like to do many stuffs, and sometimes, I really have to do many things, so the tendency is I'm tired when I go home and instead of opening the Microsoft Word after turning on the computer, I just stare at my monitor and eventually fall asleep.
What do you suppose I am trying to say? All I mean is, all this ideas for my hopefully next piece of poetry/fiction/essay show up at like wtf-time-of-the-day and then I will get all hyped up thinking that I may somehow finally produce something worth reading, but then I will think, (since I'm [tired] for the day)"Ohh, it's too early, I'm too woozy to function" and the next thing, I get back to sleep thinking I can write this tomorrow since the subject is not really forgettable.
And then the sleeping time passes. Hello another day.
I open my laptop and open the most helpful program for writers, in Windows OS sense, the Microsoft Word. I am now poised in my indian-sit position on this chair already slightly tapping the keyboard thinking of the best word to start my work. Then, I type.
Type, type, type. Until I see already all the words I want to appear on my screen.
Just a few moments after, though I have the most vivid idea of what to say, everything just turns blank. My mind is empty, I am at loss for words. Reading again what I have already done so far I just heave a sigh and say, "What now?"
The most irritating part is, everytime I return to those unfinished works to put an even better end to a seemingly very good (yabang!) beginning, I just come back to staring at the monitor again, heaving another sigh of relief. "Hayy, sayang naman 'to, nagising pa kaya ako ng 3 a.m. para sa idea na 'to!"
Aaaargh. This is too much for writer's bl0ck. It is really reasonable for me to think that a writer's job is really a complicated one. Hindi pa nga ako full-fledged writer hirap na ako. Grrrr. So there. If only there is what you call, half-writers, one-fourth writers or one-seventh writers, depending on how much they are close to finishing their work. But wait a minute, since they have not yet even accomplished what they are doing, it's really impossible to measure the kind of writers that they are... See? How frustrating.
For the record here's the list of some works left undone:
* 2 essays
* 2 novels
* 3 short stories
* 3 blog posts :P
I still want to say something, but I.....
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